Sunday, July 20, 2008

Living on the edge

I've been having trouble sleeping now for more than 10 days. I wake up almost every night around 4 AM and immediately a certain person, dear to my heart, pops into my mind. I've been praying and thinking about things in their life and in mine.
This morning I did manage to sleep until after 6. Of course, I didn't get to sleep until almost 2, but at least I didn't wake up at 4. It came into my mind that I've been feeling as if I'm living at the edge of this person's life the last few weeks. Many things have been going on in their life and I've wanted to share these things with them, but I haven't been able. They've been so busy that I've only had snatches of conversation with them and I've felt a bit left out. It's not really their fault, it's just been the circumstances. I love this person dearly, and I want to share in their struggles and sorrows and joys and I feel sad when circumstances won't allow us the time to talk about things.
But this morning as I was thinking about this, it made me realize something about my relationship with our dear Lord. So many times I get caught up in the busyness of my life and I neglect my time with Him. I just pray little snatches of prayer, here and there, and don't give Him the time He deserves and I need. He loves me dearly, even more dearly than I love this person in my life, and He wants to share in my struggles, sorrows, and joys, and when I don't pray, I don't give Him the chance. So I need to remind myself of how important it is to my relationship with our Lord to take the time to keep Him always in mind.

A blessed night to all....may you sleep in the peace of His love....

1 comment:

wife, mother and so much more! said...

I have a tendency of getting caught up in MY own things, putting God on the back burner.

What's so nice to know is that He's always there for me when I do need Him.